I need to do some backtracking..  In my first blog, i said i would give you some more tips in dealing with emotion,  particularly the big, bad, Hopless Despair, (which has been one of my biggies). So,  some of the other things i have learned by being here in this community are: a.)  talking to someone about what i am feeling, and how it feels, &  how my body is feeling at that time.  b.) Sitting in/with the emotion, without talking, either by myself or with someone else. ( depending on where you are at, having  someone else with you may be more helpful, because usually we havent learned a way out of it alone).  Take deep breaths.   c.)  something that has helped me, if you have any in your memory bank, is to remember an experience that brought you joy.  And praying with someone or by yourself.  Ask the LORD to stand between the demonic- they like to make any situation worse.

These are just a few tips….And i probably should say that these can be  very difficult to do, especially at first.

…The  moral  of the story…remember your passwords! …. This is not a new problem for me.  The reason i know this is because  when i was little my mother told me that in one of my prayers, I said, “Help me to remember what not to forget!”   So many things to remember…

So i will write another blog.. check it out!

One of my favorite verses in the Bible is Isiah 42.1-4….” Yeshua is the LORD’S servant.  He has put His spirit on Him.”  (This is the part I especially like) ……. …..:” He will bring  justise to us.  He will be gentle.  He will not shout or raise His voice.  He will not crush those who are weak or quench the smallest spark.  He will bring full justice to those who have been wronged.”    

  I know I am not the greatest at being gentle and kind, but I so appreciate it when others are.  I would like when I speak, to think first, ” will this hurt this person?  Is it encouraging them, or degrading   them?”  Kindness, and gentleness are two of my life redeeming characteristics, I think.  I was hurt by those who were not kind, considerate, and gentle.  And my true heart is to be kind, and gentle. 

That makes me think of another one of my “pet peeves”.  Lack of acceptance of people.  I like all people, & different people.   I think people have a right to be however they want to be.  Instead of  having to fit into someone’s preconcieved mold. 

Maybe I should have entitled this “My Soapbox”.  I will get off of it now. I got a bit side-tracked there.

I like to  focus on all the positive promises.  One of my favorites is Romans 8, 31-38.  GOD is FOR ME!!  He’s not out to get me or harm me!  He is not against me! . …..Wow!  ……….I think this will take some time for me  to digest!

  Next time I want to write in defense of the Underdog.  As referenced in the above verse, He will not quench the smallest spark! ….. I would like to be like this…

Later……Dona

The main trial I am having these days is learning how to get out of hopless despair!  Sounds challenging doesn’t it?  It is!- an impossibility with out a powerful God, who has the power to peel me up off the pavement, when i feel that down.- Recently Ihad a picture of how I felt,..-like I had been  flattened by a pavement roller, into a  thin strip of me.  Yeshua is the only one I know of that has the ability to peel me up off of the pavement, and make me stand up again.  I have lived most of my life in this state, and seem to have been stuck here for a year now.  But I am learning some tools to help me, while I’m in it. One of those is as I mentioned, strengthening my christian host (the believing part of me) with God’s promises to me.  It gives me some hope at least…  I will share the other tools with you next time!    -Dona